I wish that I could say that I am a naturally disciplined person.
Creative? Yes.
Optimistic? Yes.
Energetic? Yes.
Enjoys a challenge? Yes.
But, disciplined? No.
The past couple years God has been teaching me more about discipline. And also the fact, that just because some things aren’t “natural”, or come as easy for some, it doesn’t mean that he doesn’t want us to have it.
Rather, I find that in the battle of letting God help me overcome any lies which I may be believing, is where real perseverance and even courage can be born.
A lot of babies, born close together in my 20’s + MANY winters of sitting on my butt, enjoying knitting JUST A LIL too much.. is what I believe the main causes of the battle I’ve been having with my pelvic floor. I won’t go into details (Hello, TMI!) But, you can suffice it so say, God has been teaching me discipline, endurance, and courage through this.
Yes, I could beat myself up about not being proactive for years. But the truth is, that what’s done is done. All I have is TODAY to try and be as faithful and courageous, with even the small things, that God lays before me. It’s easy to hold unto control, or fear in certain aspects of life. In my experience, whenever I’ve done this, it has ALWAYS resulted in a costly price tag later.
I guess, NEWSFLASH! God really DOES know best! Small or large failures don’t change who God is or how much he loves me! All I can do is stand in the NOW with an open heart, hands, and eyes open! With my feet willing to move. Standing loved, protected, forgiven, emboldened, and encouraged. I hope today, whatever you’re going through (whether beautiful or ugly, big or small), that you know this love too.
So, CHEERS to God! To change, and being humbled (again!)
I’m thankful for the ability to move, small wins, slow progress, and the opportunity to be disciplined and grow.
