We have been slowly crossing the precipice into the next season. No, we are nowhere near Spring here. But rather, life’s changing seasons! Tears, fun, joy, grief, and love!
It’s been about learning how to bite my tongue, surrender, and learn a new kind of relationship with adult children.
One of our sons is getting married!
When we first began to learn to swim with God’s currents, it was so hard! Our family river had been flowing so hard in one direction. Turning that ship around mid-stream felt less realistic than a politician keeping a promise! But, GOD did it! It was messy, intense, and some days I’m still reaping the consequences of my many mistakes I made. But it’s ok, because I have a God who redeems. Who isn’t dependent upon ME moving mountains. But, oh-how-sweet life is when I lay down my will in exchange for his.
My old church had a saying for when times are tough, or for when faith feels rocky. That saying is, “stay low in the boat”.
But, is that what Jesus guided Peter to do? Not at all! He asked him to step out on unchartered water and come to him! So you see, “the boat” isn’t where our true safety is. Our safety is walking through the scary WITH JESUS. When we know that God is so much bigger and all-knowing than us and what we know, there is safety in that. There is security in that. When we are in him. And he’s in us.
If I could tell “younger Mom me” that best thing that I could do for my family is just walk off of that safety net and into his arms… IF I would have heard that, and actually listened I could have spared our family a lot of heart ache. But hindsight is always 20/20! Some of us need to feel the fires of hell scorching our feet before we flee to Jesus for safety. Sadly, that was me!
So yes, life has in many ways remained challenging. This winter was hard in many ways. But it’s also been a good kind of full. House projects, homeschooling, and seed starting. Hubby and I have been realizing that we need to find (create!) a new rhythm in how we make time for each other. Why does it seem that as soon as you get in a good mojo, then life shifts again and re-calibration is necessary?
Maybe it’s because we aren’t supposed to remain complacent.
I’ve also been trying to figure out the best platform for my lil online shop. Shopify? Etsy? I’ve used both in past lives. Hopefully I will figure that out soon. I’m excited to share some of my candles, as well as some other future ideas up my sleeve.
Anyways, hope this finds you well! Swimming might be better than sinking. But really, it’s trusting that’s better than fearing.
Till next time,
Heather
